Pick Me Up.
Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 7:55 PM
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I need to pick myself up again.
I feel so demoralised.
Everyday is like a routine,
Wake up, bus, school, project, bus, home.
I'm always out to take bus at 6.10am,
and spend damn long, to reach sp :/
Often, im back home at 6+....7pm.
This is so exhausting.
I seriously feel so drained, so so drained.
For one reason or another,
i feel so demotivated to go to school sometimes.
:/
I've been very sensitive, very very.
When people say about sth bad or negative, i always thought is me me me.
And becos of that, i can think and ponder about it for days.
I've no idea, why, i've become so emotional.
I dont want stress to take over me.
I feel so inferior,
like everybody around me is good in certain things,
and im not.
Everybody is looking so goooooood, and me, fat ugly.
You know how sucky the feeling is sucky?
I've been sleeeping an average of only 3-4 hours per day.
rushing through projects and projects at night, till the wee hours.
Sometimes even though i've gone offline, I'm still reading up my projects notes,
or trying to understand some difficult concepts.
My absorption rate is pretty slow.
I know, this cant go on like this.
Next week, i've got projects dued,
plus presentations in formal wears.
And, i've got test for my modules,
which i really have to read up and study it properly.
Really, i have to use my time wisely.
Enough of my ranting.
I just need to let it out.
If not, my heart will explode.
I'm always hiding my feelings,
for i know,
i shouldnt bother people.
i dun want people to worry.
And,
I MISS MY GRANDMA,
SO MUCH, SO MUCH.
But, she cant come back to life anymore.
Sucidal thoughts.
Very bad.
I think i might break down soon.
But, i will never give up.
;please give me the strength to carry on.
Back to top, XOXO.