Friendship - in poly.
Friday, August 26, 2011 @ 2:15 AM
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Will delete it after some time, so embarrassing to write this kind of thing! :X
It's pretty weird that i'm feeling sad now instead of happy because exams ended.
one last semester before i leave my polytechnic life.
After the paper, i was thinking and thinking and thinking... Did i enjoyed my poly life?
I was once with a huge class. A huge clique. I found my best sister and later, my boyfriend in poly.
And then it became smaller, but it was really significant to me, and those were the best days of my poly life.
We go for random outings, we gossip, we laugh at each other, we mug hard for projects, we eat together, we have fun together, although we might have internal quarrels, but at the end of the day, we still care and love each other.
As the saying goes, Happiness is always short-lived. So true.
It didn't last long. :'(
But well, most importantly, at least, i had experienced such a happy period with the best people in poly, :)
When i enter polytechnic, i tell myself...
I want to achieve more, I want to learn more, than just excelling in academics.
Commitments from the club came in, and gradually, more commitments from SIFE came...
And much more to explore and learn when i decided to accept the placing in SPOT.
Looking back, i'm glad that i have survived through all these.
The road aren't easy, with countless setbacks.
I cried alone, I weep at night, I felt demoralized and negative.
But, now i smile to myself and say, "Praise the lord, I survived."
There were major changes in my polytechnic life especially during the transition from year 2 to year 3.
It has been my dream to go into the EnCon even before i enter the school.
But although i've made it and got a placing, I wasn't happy, at all.
I was struggling hard, to get used to life without the usual people - my clique, my previous class.
I often feel very sad, because it's just not the same anymore. And at that point of time, i really hate the environment I am in. I no longer feel the warmth and familiarity.
It was a totally new and strange environment that i have to get used to again, and blend in.
The new class was a blend of different kind of people, with all different thinking.
It was also a strange feeling to see the usual people again, doing the same old things we used to do, but not with the both of us anymore. It was with a whole new group of people.
I still remembered vividly, I was so happy inside me on my birthday cause we all got together again, although if felt different.
I tell myself that i am happy, but my heart tells me that it's painful.
The transition was really tough, i just have to continue to smile.
The pain lasted for quite some time throughout this semester, but i chose to run away from the pain cos it was affecting me really badly.
It was after a while that i started to be closer to kaka, cherr and grace compared to the rest of the class.
Esp kaka, although i didn't know her for very long, but she was always there to give me hearts and encouragements, haha!
She's a really really nice person and I'm so glad that she found a boyfriend that cherish her so much now :)
However, in sem 1 of my year 3 life, i skipped many lessons.
I felt that i've lost the motivations i had in the past to attend classes.
I once look forward to school because of my clique. ( Hahahaha i know i sounds rather silly, but really!)
I would like to thank my boyfriend for forcing me to go to school everyday,
and always teaching me how to do assignments and patiently teach me on stuff i don't know.
He do not mind repeating for many many times to ensure that i understand. (Although he sounds more agitated and loud AS USUAL after 3 - 4 times HAHAHA)
Just days before the examinations, I panicked.
I needed someone to talk to so much.
I just don't dare to approach anybody.
because i was afraid of bringing trouble to people.
because i was afraid that people are busy with their things and do not want to talk to me.
because i felt that they dont care anymore.
Jiayu sister came..... :) PTL.
Times were getting better as i kept myself more occupied with stuff.
I got to know really awesome people in sife, esp josh and pat.
the 4 of us could talk for hours and never stop laughing.
We talk cock and nonsensical stuff and we still are able to laugh. HAHA.
Our sife meetings normally ends at about 5pm.
We could sit at the foodcourt, from 5pm till 9pm, to just chat and slack.
At times, we would do crazy things like rushing to ikea just to satisfy our craves for meatballs.
Right now as exams ended, i really felt so relived.
I felt happy that my boyfriend is able to do the papers well, I felt happy that the others are able to do the papers too.
It's just different. I felt happy, because my boyfriend is happy, and people around me are happy too.
^^
Well, this journey in polytechnic was full of ups and downs, smiles and tears.
But you know what, I still felt happy knowing these important people, esp Cheryl sis :)
Thank you for always always being there for me, to make me laugh and make me smile.
I hope you will be strong, i pray for your future to be bright and promising, and i pray for everlasting happiness for you. :)
不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有.
What matters most is the love we've once shared, the times we have once enjoyed together. :)
Hahahaha it's just an emo nemo post, but what i want to say is:
YOU ALL ARE THE BESTEST PEOPLE IN MY WHOLE OF POLY LIFE, FOREVER, and always will be. :D
When we went for our clique chalet, Everybody with the just-woke-up-face :)
我不会忘记你们的!
* no more feelings now to continue writing for tl & jj & est already.
Maybe the next post when we leave sp hahahahaha!
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